when I 'was asked to write for this blog I accepted immediately, but I did not know it would be so' difficult.
E si perche' non e' mai semplice parlare della propria vita ed in particolare di una malattia che ti colpisce personalmente.
Pero' poi ci ho riflettuto ed ho capito che raccontare la mia esperienza potra' servire ad aiutare qualcun altro con il mio stesso problema..a farlo sentire meno solo.
Ma soprattutto vorrei tentare di far conoscere questa malattia(e tutte le sue conseguenze) anche a chi non ne ha mai sentito parlare!
E forse servira', in maniera egoistica, anche a me (...o almeno lo spero!!); sara' come una sorta di terapia, per capire meglio me stessa e tutto quello che ho passato!
Ops...dimenticavo...non mi sono presentata: io mi chiamo Lella, ho 25 anni e...questa e' la mia storia!!
Dunque..da Where do I start?
Let's see ... about 7 years ago, I suddenly started having the first symptoms of a disease that doctors then called "ulcerative colitis".
There and then I have more 'so much concern ... who has not had a bit' of colitis in his life?
's why in the early days, although it has several different shelters and started treatment, I continued to develop this disease with a single word: "problem".
... For me, the other diseases were true!
Only now I realize that I was trying to underestimate my situation!
I'll explain in a few words, What is' Ulcerative Colitis! It
and 'inflammatory bowel disease that affects mainly the colon, characterized da fasi di attivita' e di remissione; quando e' in fase attiva, la mucosa,cioe' la superficie piu' interna della parete intestinale,diventa subito fragile ed ulcerata e questo comporta delle perdite di sangue.
Come potete ben capire,questa non e' una colite come tutte le altre!
In piu',la malattia colpisce si l'intestino, ma quel che e' peggio, riesce ad influenzare anche la mia testa!
Mamma mia...detta cosi' sembra che io sia matta!!
Per spiegarmi meglio vi faro' un esempio.
Sabato scorso una mia amica mi ha telefonato chiedendomi se volevo uscire a fare una passeggiata; ci sarebbe stata poi la cena con il nostro gruppo ed infine via verso qualche locale della costa.
...Serata allettante per qualsiasi girl of my age ', and also for me, but ... I had to refuse!
not think that I have the usual "apathy" of the group ... in fact, but as often happens when I relapse, I'd rather spend the evening locked in the house.
Why '? I'll explain it!
Now: dinner and 'excluded' cause this disease will not let me eat whatever I want ... I must be very careful with food ... a pinch of pepper and I might end up straight to the hospital (imagine what effect makes the pepper on an open wound ...!!!).
As for the walk and after dinner ... well '... I have to think!
And 'cause at this point my head starts to work and 1000 application "anxious" are intertwined: "And if then I feel bad? And if you do not find a bathroom? What if .. you .. and if ..???"
In practice, the anxiety and fear take possession of me and to avoid standing out rather not get worse.
Okay '... maybe I a bit 'too much! It' s not that I'm home all weekend waiting to feel bad ... what I have told, usually happens after a restart of the disease ... other days I go out and I also do some trip (but always' a thousand anxieties!).
And do not think that all this happens only to me ... all the people I met with ulcerative colitis, have my same fears!
In short: you still can not understand me?
Be '... and' normal ... if you can 'consular they can not even people who are close to me!
There will be 'but' missed one detail: you realize that by doing so 'my social life will suffer a lot and also my mood is not' least, my anxiety increases, the disease reappears seems e. .. the story of the dog chasing its tail, is not it?!?
Of course you do not need me to explain how this situation could hurt me and it 's why sometimes I try to force me to thinking that there are worse things in life ... but not' always easy!
Well ... I hope that this introduction has made you think and you have put a little 'Sight'. In the next
"episodes" I'll talk about 'in a more' depth of ulcerative colitis, its causes, care and there will be 'a diary should be on ...' ... that's enough wit 'and what a surprise'?
Thank you for your attention! HELLO HELLO
